I forgive but won’t forget

I forgive you….For showing me who you really are.

On one hand, I get it. Who would want to deal with this? Who would want a friend that plans to go to lunch then changes their mind because the pain in their body is just to much that day.

Who would want to hang out with a friend who’s bones always hurt and was afraid to make plans , because they didn’t want to let you down if their body was in pain again.

If you don’t want to talk to me for a while to focus on your own issues, or just to unwind and be alone for a while, you are entirely valid and you don’t have to justify that to me. Trust me I understand

On the other hand, some of you really hurt my feelings. When you needed me before I had my health issues I was always there for you. I’d pick you up late at night if you drank to much, I’d take you shopping when your car was in the shop. Make you soup when you were sick.

You hurt me by leaving me when I needed you most.

You hurt me by making me feel like my condition is to much for you to bear than it is for to live with.

You hurt my feelings by making me feel alone, different and excluded when all I wanted was to feel included and just the same as everybody else.

Maybe I should be thanking you instead of feeling a bit sad.

I thank those of you who went about leaving with human decency, for being honest with me, and for admitting that your own issues are the priority for you, as they should be.

I thank you for taking time away from me to focus on yourself and work on your own health. I thank those of you who went about it in a rude way for you revealed your true colors to me, and I feel relieved I don’t have to waste each other’s time.

Finally, I thank those of you who have never left. Those of you who are still here, calling me , asking me to get coffee etc….

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ChronicallyGratefulDebla

The body always knows what to do to heal itself. The challenge is listening and doing what your body needs. I was diagnosed with Osteoarthritis in 2012, Avascular Necrosis aka Osteonecrosis in 2014 and Factor V Leiden hetero, Spondylolisthesis 2016 Health Advocate for all above and more Health Activist World Changer Love photography, cooking, hiking,walking and learning to live a new normal since my diagnosis. And also Advocate for Heart Disease it's something I learned about as a kid ,both parents had it and now so does my husband. My Links Support Group Avascular Necrosis/Osteonecrosis Support Int’l https://m.facebook.com/groups/DeadBoneDiseaseAvn Facebook Main Profile https://m.facebook.com/public/Deborah-Andio Main Blog ChronicallyGratefulDebla.com YouTube Awareness Videos https://m.youtube.com/user/debbieandio New Blog on Google 3/8/2017 http://chronicallygratefuldebla.blogspot.com/2017/03/hello-i-am-debbie-andio-i-am-blogger.html Link to Mini Fact Videos http://cortanavideo.trade/user/UC1RtmEwtWKC8w9EgE2IwOFg Twitter https://mobile.twitter.com/debbiea001 Instagram https://www.instagram.com/debbiea_1962 FB Information and Awareness Pages Bone info and Joint of the Day https://m.facebook.com/AvascularNecrosisRareDiseaseDayFeb29/ ON/AVN https://m.facebook.com/Osteonecrosis-Avascular-Necrosis-Support-913679995417381/ ON/AVN https://m.facebook.com/ONAvascular-Necrosis-Knowledge-752404224891578/ Recipes https://m.facebook.com/YummyGoodness/ Facebook Link https://m.facebook.com/ChronicallyGrateful.Me/ New Morning Talk Anyone who wants to do a f b live via a guest message me. Various topics health, pain, food https://m.facebook.com/MorningTalk.Health/

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